Something else I’d like to focus on in this blog is another unique issue many young women with breast cancer might be facing; living with breast cancer and motherhood. Maybe you are a mother already. Maybe you have been thinking of starting a family. Maybe you are like a mother to someone else’s child. It doesn’t matter. We need to figure out how we are going to live with this diagnosis, go through treatment and live beyond this while still parenting.
When I found out two weeks ago that I had breast cancer, my first thoughts went to my son. Will I be alive long enough to see him go to kindergarten, college, get married, have his own children? Will I die soon and will he remember me if I do? How will this diagnosis affect his life? More than worrying about myself, I worried for him.
The first week of my diagnosis I could barely get out of bed. Every time I looked at Oliver, I cried for his potential loss and the fear he was going to feel. I cried because everyone said that he would be taking care of me and lifting my spirits during this journey. But that’s not his job. He’s a baby. He’s my baby and I want to take care of him when he’s hurt, sick, or sad. Not the other way around. More than anything, this has been the hardest part for me.
I don’t know what everyone else’s experience has been but I can imagine that many mothers have thought and gone through the same thing. When you were diagnosed, what were your biggest fears? How did you handle it and still give your child the attention and love they need?